Crossroad Contemplation

 January 4, 2022-May be considered D-day, a crossroads, a time of uncertainty. Reading a devotional this morning in Matthew 7:24-27 where Jesus talked about a wise builder and a foolish builder and how there is uncertainty and sometimes futility in our lives. Mostly because we don't seek God's plan and try to follow the path He has for us.

That's where I am this morning. If any of you know me, you know it is hard for me to sit still and that, even if I am, my mind is in overdrive, preparing for the next thing, and the next thing, and the next. Over the past few years, with age, and abuse inflicted on myself, I have started having major shoulder issues. Some of it is the constant repetitive movement of sorting and shoving mail in boxes on the mail route. Some is just abuse from trying to carry things that are too heavy. Some of it is from an actual injury due to trying to carry things that are too heavy. That's just me, why make five trips when you can load it up and do it in one.

So, here I am (no age comments please) with two bum shoulders, which, after an MRI show multiplel tears in the rotator cuff and other tendons. And looking at potential surgery and time to recover. I'm seeing the ortho doctor today to figure out how to proceed. I have to say I have had some encouraging words from others, but also some discouraging about how painful, long recovery, frustration of feeling helpless, there might be in my future. And I really hate to ask for help. :(

But, I am trusting God today for my future, for the plans He has for me, regardless of why MY wishes and desires may be. (Does anyone have a miracle cure for this--oh wait, that too is God's department). My prayer today will be one of obedience as I trust God. It will be to ask Him to help me develop a resilient faith, and to empower me to demonstrate my trust through that loving obedience. 

And, if you are a friend, you might just get a phone call asking for your help. If that happens, don't just sit with your mouth hanging open--answer the call!

The crossroad is here. Where will it lead?